October 24, 2010

My home teacher came over today. And I have to say, I was really inspired! There's a few things that really got me thinking, and motivated me to be a little better.

This part was really a wake-up call for me. "You cannot be passive in life, or in time the natural man will undermine your efforts to live worthily. You become what you do and what you think about." (Richard G. SCott) So...I've never really done anything bad in my life. Mom, don't worry. I'm still not doing anything bad. But I have become a little passive, a little apathetic in the past few weeks. Physically I have NOT been feeling well, so after homework, sleep has been a huge priority. Somehow scripture reading has kind of been put on the back-burner. But I KNOW that this is true--it's so easy to trick yourself into thinking you're doing okay. You think, Oh I'm going to institute. I'm going to church. I'm still saying my prayers. But that's not really enough, because I have noticed in the past few weeks how much easier it is for the bad things to get to me. So! That motivated me, and I'm going to start my routine again, and stop making excuses. :)

One more thing: "With even your strongest faith, God will not always reward you immediately according to your desires. Rather, God will respond with what in His eternal plan is best for you, when it will yield the greatest advantage." This basically shut up those obnoxious thoughts in my head. I'm SO stubborn, and too often I let logic get in the way of things. I've been so frustrated, upset, and sad because what I have been praying for hasn't happened yet. After years. And it's difficult to see everyone else getting what I have prayed for and wanted for a long time. But there's someone up there who knows better than I do.


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